Lost

I have forgotten how it feels like to be loved…

I have forgotten the feel of a soft touch..

Fingers caressing the folds of my skin..

Sensuous kisses travelling from the lips

To the nape of my neck and further below..

The tender look which needed not words

And your eyes which said I was your world…

Yes, I’ve forgotten them all, forgotten how they felt like…

No they are no more there and never more will be..

I have lost you, I have lost your love.
   -elliemeg

Beneath My Wings

I held you in the hollows of my arms

Lifting and supporting you

As you cringed further below

Trying to hide from the eyes

That you once thought adored you.

Insinuating eyes that now follow you

Into every nook and bend

Until you feel cornered

And overpowered by it’s presence.

No the eyes are not there now

But you are overwhelmed with guilt

Which makes you see them everywhere.

My attempts to comfort you are all in vain

Yet I give not up, for you are mine

And mine you’ll always be

I’ll forever protect you

And catch you from falling further.

You are safe beneath my wings.

 

                          –elliemeg

 

The Reality of Life

Life isn’t a fairy tale,
Where people fall in love
And live happily ever after.
But life is an affliction,
A painful depressant, a bitter pill,
Which all have to swallow-
Brings you wretchedness and engulfs your sanity.

I was young, quite young
Still living in a world of dreams
When suddenly my mind mushroomed
From a world of fairy tales
To a world of realities so corrosive.
Life had given me much
But life took them all away in an instant.

Then again came my prince or so I thought
Who would be my happy place.
But he found greener grass, in reality brown,
Callously he stabbed my heart,
Twisted and turned the knife
Till it bled the life out of me.

Still I waited bleeding red,
Drops of blood oozing out of my heart.
Still he juggled with it,
Till the juggling couldn’t be stopped
And he got trapped in his own artifice
Which became a web,
He couldn’t crawl out of.

Though misled for a while
That transformation was real,
I eventually learnt the hard way
What’s crooked can never be straight.
They say when you want something,
The whole world conspires to get it to you.
But I beg to differ with you Coelho,
What’s not meant to be will never be.

My Star (Aski)

A one in a billion star you are-

Yes, you are – my love, my life, my heart,
My reason to live, my guiding light.
Beautiful as the star of Bethlehem
Which blossoms bright in the night.

So tiny were you, held by a single arm,
Smiling away in your dreams.
Love overflowed, my heart felt warm,
While I watched you peacefully sleep,
With tears of joy, memories to keep.

My bundle of joy, my gift from above,
From a tiny, little bud I’ve watched you grow
And blossom into a flower
A more beautiful flower there cannot be
Who walked on this earth so far.

I’ve watched you grow
Into a strong girl that I know,
You’ve softened my heart,
Taught me selfless love,
And the true meaning of love.

You will forever be my brightest star
Who will shine even in the darkest of hour,
And give me strength when I am weak,
And hope, when I am meek-
You- my daughter, you- my life, my star.

My Ray

 

My Ray of light,
The sweetest smile you’ll ever see
Smile that will turn
Your frown into felicity
And sigh into laughter.

My Ray of happiness
My twinkle in the eye,
You’re my warmth in the cold,
Sunshine, on a gloomy day,
My reason to smile and laugh.

My Ray of hope,
You’re my rainbow after the storm,
The reason why I carry on.
Because of you, I know,
There’s still good in the world.

My Ray, I love you so
Nothing compares to the love I have for you.
Even when all have given up on me
I know you’ll always be there for me.
I love you Ray, my son, I live for you.

Why?

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Why should I be blamed for each and everything?

Why should I be the one to make sacrifices?

Why should I be the only one who says sorry every time? Sorry

even for each and every wrong you do!

Do you remember the last time you said sorry?

Or maybe just say yes, it was my fault? Do you?

                                                           -elliemeg