I Die Everyday

IMG_20160526_174521I die everyday with the daily dose of depression that you give.
I die, I die and there’s none to revive me…
Or wipe away the tears that trickle down from the corners of my eyes..
Or to give some hue to my pale blue lips

I walk, I talk, I breathe, I eat but still I do not live
I laugh loud with my friends, sing joyously with my babies,
But deep down I’m writhing in pain…
The pain that causes me to die again and again.

I can’t feel anymore, all my feelings are gone..
Feelings of love, Feelings of excitement, of love…
I’ve forgotten the flutters of the heart,
The butterflies and crunches in the stomach
That comes with eye lock with the one you love..

All these are like a dream and I’ve become oblivious to it
They are far flung feelings that’s now buried deep underneath….